Right now all I want is a cupcake with tons of frosting. Or maybe a HUGE bowl of fettuccine alfredo....or even better...Just a HUGE bowl of alfredo sauce with a WHOLE loaf of garlic bread to dip into it. And THIS is what I am eating for dinner......
With water...and maybe some tuna or chicken on top. Did I mention that all I want is ice cream?
I have been working out every single day and trying to eat right...and its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD. I hate it. But I love it. I love food...all food well except for salmon, and venison and oysters well, most all food. My husband loves to cook, and he is AMAZING in the kitchen...but he LOVES food too..and most of what he cooks is like death to your arteries or your heart SUPER yummy and FULL of calories.
I have struggled with my weight my whole life...and I know that I am overweight because I dont move enough and I make bad food choices. But I also know that eating right and working out is hard. And I dont like when things are hard. I want to quit....and eat chips and queso. But I cant...I made myself a promise and I am going to stick to it. I hope.
Sometimes I feel like the only person in the whole entire PLANET who finds it so hard to eat right and work out. But then I see the chubby girl at the gym next to me on the treadmill...and she is huffing and puffing and pouring sweat glistening just like me. We look at eachother and smile...of course we cant talk because we are both so out of breath we are both so into our workout. Then I look up and see her TV screen....yep...shes watching the food network too. Its Bobbly Flay on the screen and he is making some sort of blessing sent from above 10 layer chocolate cake. Its like he's a drug pusher and I am willing to do ANYTHING for cake ....and the other CG (chubby girl) looks at me...like she wants to say "lets go right now and eat cake"...I look at her with the "OK lets go!!!" look...but then we both smile again, change the channel on our screens, pump up the resistance on our treadmills and keep on keepin on.
No cake today my friends....No cake today.
Did you have to say queso? That is my weakness! It is really hard to say no and to stick with working out. Newest follower from the blog hop.
ReplyDeleteI totally get everything you are saying!! I live on salads but then go crazy on the weekends with baking! LOve anything with sugar in it and geez, did you have to mention one of my favorite dishes--fettuccine Alfredo?? Now I will be thinking of that all day!! Yum! Newest follower from the GFC blog hop. Would LOVE it if you could visit my humorous blog site and follow back! thanks for sharing (and making me hungry!!).
ReplyDeleteAw, my friend, you're not the only Jesus-girl who battles the bulge! Sending prayers up for you (and me)! :)
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate!
ReplyDelete*new follower :)
Thanks for linking up with us for Wonderful Wednesdays!
ReplyDeleteRachel
OMG I totally understand what you're going through! i too am trying to eat more healthily/work out, but sometimes i feel like it just doesn't make any difference :/ we just have to keep going i guess!
ReplyDeletefound your blog through the wonderful wednesday linkup and am now following :)
Dear Heather, I too have struggled my entire life. I have a weekly post titled weightless Wednesday when I share my story, progress, struggles. I have gotten better at turning down free desserts but I caved and ate chips tonight. It's a journey and I'm waiting until I get to the destination. I found you through the wonderful Wednesday linky.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry girl, you are not alone. I never knew how difficult it was to eat right and lose weight until I had my daughter. I had always been a perfect size 6 until then. However, after 10 months of my tummy playing hostess to my lovely little munchkin, and having to be put on steroids for complications during my pregnancy, I ended up in a size 14.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could say I lost it all right away and it was super easy. Neither of those are what I'm going to tell you. What I'm going to tell you is that it took me a year to lose that weight. A year of dieting and pushing myself to the limit during each and every exercise.
I'm now back into my pre-pregnancy clothes and have registered to run my first 5k coming up in November (The Color Run). And I'm super excited. Not so much because I lost all the weight, but because I am literally in the best shape I've ever been in in my entire life. Before my daughter, I looked fit, but I couldn't run a mile to save my life. Now 2 years later I run 4-5 miles a day.
Keep at it! Nothing in life comes easy. And when you get there, it will have been worth every drop of sweat :)
p.s. I'm a new follower. Don't be afraid to swing by my blog and say hello :)
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-Reese
Loved your intro in Pointing up!! Too real!!
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