I have always wondered why and how people could be addicted to drugs and alcohol.
I watch shows like Intervention...and think holy wow...those people are messed up. How can they let something take over their life like that. How can they let a substance control them like that. When see or know someone who is all strung out...you wonder...how can they live like that. Why cant they just get clean and STOP?
I smoked off and on from when I was 14 until about 2 years ago. My parents smoked and so it was easy for me to pick up the habit. But I was always able to stop when I wanted to. I wasnt addicted to smoking. I haven't had a cigarette in a little over 2 years...and the smell of smoke makes me sick. I think about it sometimes...but dont feel the need to smoke. My husband smokes...and I hate it. I am always
asking nagging him to stop. I tell him things like "if you loved me, you would quit" or "I am never going to kiss you unless you stop". He was a smoker when I married him...we both were. It makes me mad that he cant just STOP. But he is addicted.
I never really realized that I am an addict. I am addicted to food. I think about it when I wake up, when I am at work, and when I go to sleep. I love food...I love cooking food, trying new food...food has been my comfort.
Until this past month I never realized HOW addicted to food I was. When I was on my 2nd week of no fast food and no crap..I felt SO sick. My head hurt...my stomach hurt..and I craved taco time and french fries. My body was literally going through withdrawals from FOOD. are you kidding me? Aren't withdrawals for people who are addicted to METH? People who need to shoot drugs into their veins to feel something? Well..I have news for you...when you put any kind of junk into your body whether its meth, cocaine or a cheeseburger....your body gets used to it. You get used to it. I never understood that I was addicted to food.
Thats just crazy.
So here goes.
My names is Heather...I am a food-a-holic. Food has become my joy and comfort. Instead of what I fuel my body with. I am getting clean. I am giving up my addiction. But I will always be a food a holic....just like someone who is an alcoholic...they never stop being an alcoholic, they just stop drinking.
God made our bodies perfect. The emotions and sensations that He lets us experience are a million times stronger than the high that any drug or substance we can put into our body can give us. That's pretty awesome. But we all use something...we are all addicted to something.
So whats your addiction? Food? Porn? The Internet? Drugs? Pepsi? Vodka? Sex?
Now I understand addiction. I understand how you cant just STOP. But I also understand that YOU CAN change.