You know those days that something happens and it makes you question everything? Someone today told me that I was "A fake Bi%$# who only cares about what people think" they told me that I put on a front to make people think that I was a "good christian" girl. Then they told me that I wasnt fooling anyone.
This crushed me. Am I fake? Do I put on a front? Do I try to be someone that I am not? Am I not always honest with people?
Do I act like this....
In front of some people and like this.....
In front of others?
Do I judge people, or lie to people?
And I guess why these questions wrecked me so much is because the answer was yes to some of them. I am NOT perfect. I do judge people sometimes, but I am working on that. And I am trying to let God use me, I am trying to see everyone as God sees them. Do I yell at my husband and disrespect him sometimes, yes I do....but I am working on that too. I am the first one to admit that I am not perfect. But anyone who knows me and loves me will tell you that I am honest. I dont pull any punches. If I screw up, I will tell you. If I fall, I will tell you, because the truth is...I might need you to help me up.
This persons description of me was not "true" but it still made me think. And when I think...I am able to see the areas that still need work. I am a work in progress. I am never going to stop growing or stop trying to be better. A better person, a better wife, a better mom, and better friend, a better christian.
What about you? Have you ever had someone say something to you that really hurt, but when you really thought about it....you could take their hurtful words and grow from them?