Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Holy Cow.

Holy Cow...I've been a bad blogger. I suck. Its been like 4 years since I have given you a lovely post to read. You've missed me, I know it.
 
I've been SO busy, life in the Hot Mess Express Lawless Life has been like a ride on the crazy train fabulous.
 
Lets see...First of all thank you for all of the SWEET, UPLIFTING, ENCOURAGING comments after I was brutally honest with myself and with you  in this post. I am SUPER blessed to be a part of this blogger world.

 I've been working my booty off at the gym and eating healthy for 2 1/2 weeks now. No fast food....I would kill someone for some cheesesticks and a milkshake. But I havent lost a single flippin pound. Are you kidding me? Awesome. Just Awesome. NO BUENO!
 
But I am gonna keep going. Rome wasnt built in a day. Well, thats what I hear...I've never been to Rome...but apparently it took a long time to build.
 
I am travelling this week for work...so I am typing this from my hotel room...I am about to go tear up the "fitness club". Gotta sweat, right? Right.
 
I want to share two things with you. besides all the nonsense I just shared above
 
1. Lets talk the Bachelor...Hey Sean...Tierra is CRAY CRAY...send the little gem home and move on. The girl needs Jesus or at least some Prozac.
 
 
2. Lets talk working out...just for a sec. (if you wanna peace out at this point its ok...I just need to ask a question!) How many minutes of cardio should I be doing for a good fat/calorie burn? I've been doing 30-45 minutes on the bike at intervals of level 10 and 15. Then I usually do some sprints on the treadmill...but not every time. I HATE THE TREADMILL. Any advice? Do you have a fabulous workout plan you would like to share with me? Por favor?
 PUH LEASE?
 
 
Ok my little Chicas..I gotta go. But I promise to be back again tomorrow. Happy Humpday!
 
 

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

my big fat (not so) secret.

Ok so you have read all about how I hate to be told that I have a pretty face here
and here . But I havent actually told you guys how much I struggle with my weight. Well, maybe I have.
 
But at this point in my life I am the heaviest I have EVER been. I am ashamed to say that I weigh 277 pounds. (my own husband doesnt know how much I weigh) thats almost THREE HUNDRED pounds. thats 2 people who weight 150 pounds. I feel disgusted with myself. I am 40 pounds heavier then when I gave birth my daughter almost 9 years ago. I am 100 pounds heavier then when I got pregnant with her. I cannot believe that I let myself get this fat. As I write this tears are streaming down my face and I feel like I am going throw up.
 
I decided last week that I am over it. I am done with the fad diets, the weight loss gadgets and the things that I have done to lose weight that have REALLY harmed my body (being bulimic for 2 years).
 
I started back at the gym, and am trying to eat right. It just feels different this time...it doesnt feel like I am going to give up. I feel stronger. I feel like I know I can do it.
 
 But its hard. Last night when I came home..it was about 9pm...I had been to work, then to the gym, then to bible study..then home. I was exhausted. I had eaten my veggies and my protein, but I was STARVING, my body was SO SORE, and I was SO crabby. I burst into tears and told the mister how disgusting I felt. How I was SO mad at myself for getting this fat. He just held me in his arms and said these words " You are beautiful, and I am SO proud of you."   
 
That was all I needed to hear. I am going to do it this time. I am going to reach my goal of 170 pounds. Thats 107 pounds that I need to lose.
 
The reason I am writing this on here is because I am going to need support. I am not turning my blog into a weight loss blog...but maybe I can encourage someone else...and hopefully someone can encourage me. I know that this journey will be hard. But I know that it will be worth it.
 
Here we go.
 

Monday, January 28, 2013

Pajama jeans

Happy Monday hotties!!
 
I had a wonderful weekend..did you?
 
Yesterday the mister helped me fold MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF laundry (yes, I know I am a lucky girl) and this is what he said as he folded a pair of my Silver jeggings.
 
Him: "are these those sweat pant jeans?"
Me: "huh? What are you talking about?"
Him: (showing me the jeggings) "These! These are sweat pant jeans!"
Me: " No they arent they are called JEGGINGS..and I bought them at Maurices, not off an infomercial!"
Him: "HAHAHA..PAJAMA JEANS! thats what they are called! You wear Pajama jeans!!!"
Me: " you are on crack...they are not pajama jeans, plus the last time I wore them, you thought my butt looked good in them"
Him: "I still think that its hilarious that you have pajama jeans."
Me: (throwing a t-shirt at him with massive force) YOU ARE A PUNK!"
 
I am SO glad that I have a mister that makes me laugh.
 
ALSO....this weekend I got my January CARA BOX!!! (for more info on what a CARA BOX is, you can learn here!
 
This months theme was resolutions!
 
The fabulous lady I sent to was Aleks over at A Slocum Story!
 a slocum story
To see the goodies that I sent her, you can check out her adorable blog!
 
The lovely lady that sent to me was Nilda over at Entirely my Own!
Laughter, love and necklaces
 
She sent me the most UH MAZING package! I told her that I need to get organized, and to try and cook more for my family..and get healthy! She sent me a fabulous wipe of magnetic calendar, recipe cards AND some of her FAVORITE recipes, a WHOLE pack of AMAZING ink joy pens, a little planner/journal, and a small water bottle for me to take with me when I run! Plus, her note was SUPER sweet!!! Thanks Nilda! I LOVE IT!!!
 

Thursday, January 24, 2013

its OK..

 
its ok that I havent been to the gym or tried to eat healthy in over 4 months. (because I am starting again...and going to try to stick with it)
 
its ok that I start again alot...at least I start.
 
its ok that I have watched this movie
 
5,978,604 times since it came out on blue ray a few weeks ago. It makes me happy.
 
Its ok that I havent washed my hair in 4 days. It still looks cute, and we all know thats all that matters.
 
Its ok that I cant stand it when people chew with their mouth open. its gross. so stop it.
 
Its ok that I cant spell half the time, and my grammar sucks, and I dont know how to use punctuation correctly. I know you dont judge. Wait, of course you do. But...I dont care!
 
Its ok that sometimes when I tell the mister I love him he says "thats nice" because I know that he loves me too.
 
Its ok that I am addicted to etsy and groopdealz.

Its ok that I have bieber fever.

 

Just kidding. BUT i am excited that I bought tickets to take my daughters to see him in vegas when we are there this summer! I am not telling them until the night of the concert. They are gonna DIE!!  

Its ok that I am not perfect. Because being perfect or trying to be perfect....would suck. And so would this blog.
 

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Conspiracy theory...

After coming home and entering my dinner (from red lobster) into my fitness pal...
 
Me: "hey babe...we ate waaaayyy too many calories at dinner!"
Him: "whatever...all we had was shrimp!"
Me: "actually you had like 8 biscuits too"
Him: "those don't count!"
Me: (after calculating it) "well...those 8 biscuits were 1,004 calories!"
Him: "that thing lies. Dont listen to the lies! What a piece of crap!"
Me: "I'm gonna look up your favorite burger and see how many calories it has...ok, see your sourdough jack has a ton of calories...and you eat like 3 of them!"
Him: "well that's because no man can get full on 1 sourdough jack"
Me: "babe...im sure there are guys who can eat just one, and be full!"
Him: "yes, there is one man. His his name is richard simmons...and hes like 4 foot tall and weighs 80 pounds. Do i look like richard simmons to you?"
Me: "nope!"
Him: "ok then...stop telling me about calories. If I counted calories like you do, I would die from lack of food. And I couldnt eat ANYTHING!!! Its all a conspiracy theory anyways."
 
And there you have it.
 
Calories are just a conspiracy theory.
 
And richard simmons is the ONLY MAN in the world that can get full off 1 sourdough jack sammich.

 
(PS...he is SUPER supportive to me with the healthy eating stuff....but he is also SUPER sarcastic. If you couldnt tell ;) )

if only.

Yesterday, someone told me this:
 
Them: "have you lost weight?"
Me: "no, not really...I havent been to gym in almost 4 months"
Them: "oh...well you look like you have lost weight, it must be your outfit. You know...you are already almost pretty. I mean, your face is gorgeous...if you could only start losing weight you could be a knock out!"
Me: (with tears starting to well up) "thanks?!?"
 
Then I got in my car and cried. UGGGHHHH. I HATE it when people who I dont even know that well, make comments about my weight. Especially when they talk about how cute I would be if I was skinny. If you have read this post you know how much I hate the..."you have such a pretty face" comment.
 
Little does that lady know that I had already felt like a big ol' wilderbeast that day. So her comment just made it worse.
 
I mean, I know that I eat wrong, I dont work out and I am 86 pounds overweight. But hey lady...its NOT YOUR PLACE TO TELL ME ABOUT IT. MMMM kay?
 
So...last night I went back to the gym..I started logging my food again in fitness pal...and I am going to start trying to be healthy again. Not because of that persons comments. But because I need to be healthy.
 
In other news...the misters new favorite phrase "I'm not a playa, I just crush a lot". For real...he beats me in scrabble he says "YEAH..Im not a playa I just crush a lot"....he proves me wrong in a meaningless argument "Oh yeah..I'm not a playa I just crush a lot".
 
 He's insane.
 
But hes pretty hot..so I can deal with the gangsta talk.
Happy Hump day....raise yo hand in the ay-er if you a true play-er......

Monday, January 21, 2013

Meet this fabulous lady..NOW!

I have been SO super blessed in the short time that I have been blogging to meet some fabulous ladies that share my passion for Jesus...loving others and loving life. Danette is one of those women.
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 She is kind, beautiful, loving, and compassionate....I know that she blesses EVERYONE around her. And I am thankful for her blog. If you dont know her...check her out ASAP at All my Love for all my days .
All My Love for All My Days
I just wanted to give you a peek into who she is....so here is just a teaser into the amazing life giving person she is...but if you wanna know more..you gotta check out her blog!!!!!
 
Why do you blog?
I'm something of an accidental blogger. I started blogging to just express myself. I didn't know anything about the blogging community. I started exploring and decided that I really liked being a blogger. I could write what I want. Blogging gave me a voice to do what I love to do...share love.
If you could do ANYTHING for 1 week, what would it be?
 
This will seem superficial I know, but I'd like to try to be an actress. I think I just want to see if I could do it. I know I could do the acting, but I'd like to see if I could keep my head and my faith with all the lights and makeup.

what is your favorite bible verse, and why?
 
I have several favorite verses, but the one I always come back to is Psalm 51:10, "Create in me a clean heart, O God. And renew a loyal spirit in me."
 
 
See! I told you she was awesome! Plus...she wants to give YOU 3 months of FREE small ad space on her blog!!! Enter the rafflecopter below and go CHECK HER OUT!!
 
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Sunday, January 20, 2013

Lets talk about being broke.

I am about to write a post about being broke. get ready for it.
 
6 years ago the mister decided that he wanted to go back to school to get his Bachelors degree. Ok.. no big..right?!? Well, lets see...4 kids, a high maintenance wife, a full time job for him, a full time job for me...AND SCHOOL? We knew we could do it.
And we did.
 He graduated in 4 years and had high honors. Now he has an amazing job...and we are doing better than ever.
But when he was in school money was SO tight. If you have ever been in college or have had someone in your family go to college you know that its expensive. But the cost that surprised me the most EVERY SINGLE semester? BOOKS!!! How can you be serious that a text book talking about history or math or sciences or something else silly completely needed...costs $200 bucks!!!!! When I was in college my parents paid for my books so I never thought twice about it. But this time around we had to pay for it ourselves. The first year we just bought all of the books from the campus bookstore. The total was $636 FOR BOOKS!!! Holy Moly...I just had a heart murmur thinking about it.
 
But the SECOND year I wised up and we RENTED his books. From a fabulous online site...like Campus Book Rentals (dot) com !
 
I saved almost 80% on his books. And this wife was a happy wife. And we know that happy wife equals happy life!
 
It was SUPER easy. I just took his list, went online entered the titles and found them in seconds! I received the books in 6 days, and they were in awesome condition. He could highlight in them, just like they were his own, and when the semester was over, I just stuck them into a PRE PAID envelope and sent them back!! It was EASY PEASY...and it saved us money.
 
PLUS...ya'll know that I love to help people..and campusbookrentals.com gives backs. A portion of every single book rented goes to Operation Smile...Their Cause: Operation Smile provides free surgeries to repair cleft lip, cleft palate and other facial deformities for children around the globe.
 
How fab is that? YOU save money AND you help change a child's life. Pretty legit, huh!?!
 
Here is a little clip of how campus book rentals process works so you can see just how easy it is!
 
 
 
You can find A book that you might need... just by searching by title or author or a few other options...
 
Ok...so there you go...being in college means being broke. BUT you can save money in BIG ways by renting your books instead of buying them.
 
Save a little lettuce to support your shoe fetish...fergie style.
 
Uh huh...I just quoted fergie. Your welcome.
 
Stay Glamorous...and rent your books instead of buying them!!!!!

40 years.

I had the honor of being asked to speak to a church body today about the Sanctity of Human life. This was the first version of my message, and I wanted to share it with you. Its a pretty strong message...but its what I believe and what I stand for.

I am the development director for Life choices clinic in Lewiston. My job is to create relationships with people in our community and to build awareness of what we do. Many of you might not know what we do….we used to be known as the Crisis pregnancy clinic…now we are known as life choices, and our goal is to save babies, help moms, and break cycles. I want to tell you about all of the wonderful things that God is doing at Life choices…but first I want to tell you why I am here on THIS day.

Well today seems like any normal day…we all got up…got dressed…some of us ate breakfast, some of us drank coffee….but I would be willing to bet that not very many of us knew that today was an anniversary. Not the kind of anniversary that you want to celebrate though. Today is the 40th anniversary of the Roe vs. Wade decision. Since 1983 there have been over 54 MILLION babies aborted.

54 million.
Let me give you a comparison….in our history of war there has been an estimated 1,043,569 American war deaths…

Gulf War  458
Vietnam War 58,151
Korean War 54,246
WW II 407,316
WW I 116,708
Civil War 498,332
Revol. War 25,324
Total War Deaths 1,043,569
The total deaths of Jews during the holocaust is around 6 million. The holocaust was a horrible HORRIBLE time in history. Many people lost loved ones and many people lost their lives because of a decision that one person made.
 
So in comparison to ALL of the American deaths from war and all of the Jews killed during the Holocaust....the numbers of babies aborted since 1986 is still about 7 TIMES that number. No flags flown at half staff...no tears from the president...no gun salute. Just 54 Million babies...gone.
Today…in our little area…in the LC valley…in our backyard every three days a baby dies because of a decision that 1 person makes. And in the US...1.5 million babies die every single year..because of a decision that one person makes.
There is an abortion every 3 days performed on a women from the LC valley. But that doesn’t even include the number of plan b pills taken, or the number of RU486 pills taken. Our society tells us that its ok to cover up a mistake, and get rid of a problem with a pill or a procedure. Its scary. And the worst part of all of this is that its scary for the women who are making these choices.

Women walk through our doors…but not just the women that you are thinking…its not just the 17 year old who slept with her high school boyfriend and ended up pregnant. It’s the 37 year old married woman who has 3 kids, a good job, a loving husband, and a wonderful home life. It’s the 22 year old whos husband was just sent out on active duty overseas. It could be the women sitting in front of you or beside you. The fact is…1 out of every 3 women that come see us claim to be Christians. But think that abortion is their only choice…they think that their parents will kill them, their husband will leave them, their boyfriend will break up with them, their family will disown them, their friends will think they are a slut. The list goes on and on. They are hearing ALL of the voices around them telling them that abortion is the only choice. The choice to cover up their mistake, make their life easier, or hide a secret.
But abortion doesn’t do ANY of those things. It destroys families, it crushes dreams, it creates cycles of destruction, and it breaks up relationships.

The good news about this…yes…there is good news. The good news is that Life choices clinic and other centers like us exist to help these women. We break through the lies, deception and death of this world…to show them the life truth and hope of Jesus Christ. We let them talk, with out judgement. We let them have a voice. We help them heal. We save babies, help moms and break cycles.
 
We want this place, this Valley…to be a place of Life, a place of hope…and a place of Truth. And God is doing it…in 2011 we saved 100 babies…and in 2012 we saved 140 babies. That means that 140 women made a choice for life AFTER coming to Life choices Clinic. All of those babies were in danger of being aborted. 1 out of every 6 babies born at St joes is born because their mom came to life choices. We are making a difference. Yes it has been 40 years of death. 54 million babies gone. 54 million lawyers, doctors, scientists, coaches, teachers, singers, dancers, moms, dads, aunts uncles. But we have something that the enemy doesn’t. We have God, and we have HIS strength, HIS mercy and HIS love. We are making a difference in this place.

It starts with you..its starts with the church…with the parents...talking to our kids about sex, about good decisions and healthy relationships. Talking with them about abortion. Its scary, but I know it would be better coming from you, then from us when they come into our center for a pregnancy test.
 Imagine what your life would be like with out your children…without your grandchildren. Without their smiles and laughter. Without their hugs and kisses. All those drawings and paintings stuck on your refrigerator…Imagine them gone.

So many women have a refrigerator with nothing on it…and a heart that is broken because they thought that abortion was the only answer. Its is our time to help them, and to help their hearts.