Right now all I want is a cupcake with tons of frosting. Or maybe a HUGE bowl of fettuccine alfredo....or even better...Just a HUGE bowl of alfredo sauce with a WHOLE loaf of garlic bread to dip into it. And THIS is what I am eating for dinner......
With water...and maybe some tuna or chicken on top. Did I mention that all I want is ice cream?
I have been working out every single day and trying to eat right...and its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD. I hate it. But I love it. I love food...all food
well except for salmon, and venison and oysters well, most all food. My husband loves to cook, and he is AMAZING in the kitchen...but he LOVES food too..and most of what he cooks is like death to your arteries or your heart SUPER yummy and FULL of calories.
I have struggled with my weight my whole life...and I know that I am overweight because I dont move enough and I make bad food choices. But I also know that eating right and working out is hard. And I dont like when things are hard. I want to quit....and eat chips and queso. But I cant...I made myself a promise and I am going to stick to it. I hope.
Sometimes I feel like the only person in the whole entire PLANET who finds it so hard to eat right and work out. But then I see the chubby girl at the gym next to me on the treadmill...and she is huffing and puffing and
pouring sweat glistening just like me. We look at eachother and smile...of course we cant talk because we are both so out of breath we are both so into our workout. Then I look up and see her TV screen....yep...shes watching the food network too. Its Bobbly Flay on the screen and he is making some sort of blessing sent from above 10 layer chocolate cake. Its like he's a drug pusher and I am willing to do ANYTHING for cake ....and the other CG (chubby girl) looks at me...like she wants to say "lets go right now and eat cake"...I look at her with the "OK lets go!!!" look...but then we both smile again, change the channel on our screens, pump up the resistance on our treadmills and keep on keepin on.
No cake today my friends....No cake today.